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I hate it when it's 3am and I'm still wide awake .

I tend to do stupid things to hurt myself .

No, not physically but mentally, emotionally .

I will find anything from the past or things that I'm actually not suppose

to care about anymore and hurt myself with it .

Like I know if I read or go through it,

my heart will start to ache and break and bleargh .

I try to fight myself and avoid me from doing it but no,

some nights, my mind works stronger than my heart and ta-da,

night ruined .

Someone, please stop me :/

I hate doing this to myself yet I can't stop .