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Hey guys !

So yesterday I logged on my ask.fm ( yea after soooooo long ! )

I just wanted to check if there are any questions or whatsoever

but I wasn't allowed to answer ANY ,

Why ? I'll explain later .

Anyways, there were 14 questions ! 

And as I scrolled down, there was a question that had me staring at it,

re-reading every single word for like five minutes .

Here :

Yea . That question actually bothered me a-lot and not being able to answer it

made me feel a-lot worse !

So I figured, since I couldn't answer it there, on my ask.fm,

why not answer it here ? 

So here is my answer :

YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT'S ACTUALLY GOING ON SO

Let me tell you:

"Why are u always out with Addy and his friends ?"

First of all, you make me sound like a terribly clingy brat,

I mean I am clingy but not terribly to the extend that I will

always find the need to be there whenever Addy chills with his boys !

That's ludicrous !

I only get to see Addy two times a week, sometimes three, sometimes once,

sometimes, not at all .

We have lifes to live .

So he spends most of his time with his friends okay .

And the thing is that on that two days of the week he gets to see me,

he would take me along to chill with his friends again .

No, I did not choose to be there and I don't actually have a choice either,

if I want to spend time with Addy, I'll have to spend time with his friends too .

Sometimes, I feel sad that Addy does this .

It's like I couldn't spend just one whole day with him alone,

like one whole day without having his friends around .

Don't get me wrong, it's not like I don't like his friends

or I have something against them, no .

They're actually really fun to be with, they're friendly, funny,

I like them but

sometimes I wish I could spend some 'alone' time with Addy .

Just him and me, 

talking or laughing or playing our silly games .

There are times we planned to catch a movie together or go out for lunch or something

and I would feel really happy, like yay,

finally it's just us .

Even if it's for an hour or two and even though we're still going to chill with his friends

later, atleast I get to spend time with him alone .

It's still okay, better than nothing ~

But at the very last minute, he would call me or text telling me that

a friend would like to tag along and it just brings my whole mood down .

I just wanna say "Can it just be us ? Just this one time, please ?"

But I can't cause I don't want to upset your friend and make them think like I'm

taking you away from them :/

So I had to say yes .

Worse thing is that on our monthsaries, you'd bring them along too .

A monthsary is a day where it's suppose to be only me and you .

If it's on any other normal, casual day, I really don't mind your friends tagging along .

I'm all fine .

They're fun and nice, bring them . 

Bring the whole block if you want to, I really don't mind ,

but if it's our monthsary,

can't it be just us ?

It's just one day in one whole freaking month,

can't you spend that 5-6 hours with me alone ? :/

You can see your friends after, do whatever you want,

I really don't mind ,

but just on that day , just that few hours :/

I know most of the time, you'd persuade your friends to join us and that upsets me,

like why ?
Don't you want to spend time with me alone ?

Am I that boring that you have to have one of your buds around to keep

you entertained ?

Don't ask me why I think that way .

I just do ,

With the way you're acting, it makes me think that way .

And sometimes I hate myself for not being a good girlfriend .

You'd always tell me that they wanted to tag along,

it's them and not you .

Frankly speaking, your friends are really reasonable people,

and they're understanding .

They would understand that it's our Monthsary and they're not suppose to tag along 

because it's an 'us' day .

Not an 'us+him' day, not an 'all of us' day .

They know that and I know they're not the ones to bug in on special days ,

unless it's a casual day,

that I understand .

You should stop telling me that, it leaves a bad impression on them,

and now as you can clearly see,

people are starting to view me as a clingy girlfriend like

 "Oh, you want to hang out with your friends ? I'll come"

"You want to go out with the boys ? I'll join you"

"You wanna have a boys day with your mates ? Make it a boys+1 girl day"

That's really f*cked up I swear .

And it's bothering me cause people don't actually know what's really going on

here .

Sigh ......................

P.s; I wasn't active or allowed to answer my ask.fm cause 

my mama and Addy banned me from doing so ,

Haha, they find ask.fm mean, irrelevant and hurtful ,

after reading all 14 questions, I think I finally got why

they banned me from using ask.fm haha .

It caused me and Addy to fight and it wasn't a good thing blehhh :/